notes to self

themes: the trap, the space between, this present, space which is not all space but is all knowable space. things in this space which are not of this space and so are not truly in this space. the cataclysmic transformation of a subject into an unknowable subject, a present absence, usually via mortality. birds as present absence. water as transformation. ice as the mortality of that transformation. mud. knowledge of the present as fear, the present is the overwhelming. being present to this present.