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Feb. 8th, 2003 08:03 pmPROCESSES OF ALIENATION
THE BEGINNINGS OF A STUDY
I remember back in grade school hearing about some kid whose dick was mangled somehow as an infant so the parents had him surgicly changed to a female and raised him up a girl. I thought then, seriously, what if the opposite could be true, what if I were a girl? The problem is not whether or not it was true. The problem is that it was possible. Anyone could be a girl or a boy, it didn't matter. It was all in question. This is how i was alienated from gender.
I also noticed at an early age the prices at the fast food counter. a 16 ounce cup was two dimes cheaper than a 32 ounce cup. Why is this? if the price had something to do with the raw substance then a 32 oz cup of soda would be twice as much as a 16 oz of soda. the fact that it wasnt told my young calculating brain that the actual price of the raw substance was far less than the price for either. if they could afford to use price so arbitrarily. this is how i learned that nothing has actual value. and that merchants are all trying to cheat you of something. this is how i became alienated from commerce.
the two biggest ways for a human to identify themselves, sex and money.
it's getting harder and harder to talk to other humans. See, i dont need you to alleviate my boredom, which is the reason most people talk. I'm good at boredom, i can make whole weeks disappear. a trick i learned on cross-country bus trips. No, i'm only talking so you can remind me I'm human.
THE BEGINNINGS OF A STUDY
I remember back in grade school hearing about some kid whose dick was mangled somehow as an infant so the parents had him surgicly changed to a female and raised him up a girl. I thought then, seriously, what if the opposite could be true, what if I were a girl? The problem is not whether or not it was true. The problem is that it was possible. Anyone could be a girl or a boy, it didn't matter. It was all in question. This is how i was alienated from gender.
I also noticed at an early age the prices at the fast food counter. a 16 ounce cup was two dimes cheaper than a 32 ounce cup. Why is this? if the price had something to do with the raw substance then a 32 oz cup of soda would be twice as much as a 16 oz of soda. the fact that it wasnt told my young calculating brain that the actual price of the raw substance was far less than the price for either. if they could afford to use price so arbitrarily. this is how i learned that nothing has actual value. and that merchants are all trying to cheat you of something. this is how i became alienated from commerce.
the two biggest ways for a human to identify themselves, sex and money.
it's getting harder and harder to talk to other humans. See, i dont need you to alleviate my boredom, which is the reason most people talk. I'm good at boredom, i can make whole weeks disappear. a trick i learned on cross-country bus trips. No, i'm only talking so you can remind me I'm human.
